Pamper, pamper, pamper mood... =)

Weeeeee!!!!! I felt great & ecstatic after a hairdo. I have never felt this way before. Plus, i never knew that having a hairdo would actually make you feel great. I know, it's sappy to feel that way. Well, i'm happy to succeed my 1st plan, which is a hair cut. hehe. A N.E.W meeeee. At first, Diana & I planned to have a hair cut together. Probably the bob style but the longer version. So, i waited for her for a few days. LOL. Sorry babe, i cant wait anymore longer. Really need to snip snip those hair off.

But, my main plan was to have a full body massage after a pile of tedious assignments. Well, my mum promised me to pamper me at first. One trip to HATYAI. Yes, shopping spreeee & massage.. Weeee, cant wait for that to come. I have made soo many plans for myself. Gatherings & other stuff, but the most important thing is PAMPERING myself to the max. Weeee... I asked my dad about the Hatyai trip, when & stuff like that. Was told beginning of JULY. My body cant wait that long and i really needed one so badly. So, i decided to asked my mum for a aroma therapy massage voucher since she have it. Hehe. She said ok, remind me later. Due to my forgetfulness, she went to KL for holiday without handing me the voucher. =( Anyway, shall wait for her to hand me the voucher. Probably, going for the massage next week. =)

Let's get back to the original topic, my new style, which is my hair. I'm just crazy. LOL. It suddenly hit my mind, Hey, why not go for the hairdo now? Well, decided at once. First, it's too long for me & i feel i need a hairdo. At first, i thought of just trim it or something. But then, my tiny heart just tell me. Pamper yourself & let the hair stylist do something to your hair. Normally, i wont simply let people decide the style of my hair. But today, i just couldnt be bother to take notice about my hair. I gave the hair stylist the total command on my hair. Gosh.

Hair stylist: What kind of hair style do you want?

Chee: Erm, I dono what kind of hair style i want.

Hair stylist: Do you prefer it to be super short or long?

Chee: Erm, Not too short & not too long.
Hair Stylist: OK, then i will cut something different, which is lots of layers. haha

Chee: Ok

Just like that, i let him do whatever that he want to my hair. He washed my hair and stuff. Plus, i asked him, Do you think my hair needed the hair treatment? He was like, yes... your hair are all dried up. So, i was like. Ok, then i will do the hair treatment as well. Hahaha. For once, i dont care about price. Oh God, that was something new about me. Usually, i'm not that type of person. Well, i was thinking, it's not like i have a make over every now & then. Plus, i have not been pampering myself for soooo long. So, decided to just pamper myself to the max. I was reading the magazine all the time. Dint even bother to check on my hair at all. Just let him do his thing. Haha. The after effect of the hairdo, turns out to be great. I felt great after that. Was practically smilling all the way back to my house. Weeeeeeee... I guess this hairdo changed my mood. I was back to the old me.. The happy-go-lucky & cheerful girl with better goals this time. There's more pampering moments to come. But here are some new hair pictures. It seems that Esther & Rachel said it was the same. Probably, it's bouncy now & a younger look, which i totally like it.

The OLD Meee.

The New Me

Finally, the pieces are place back into the shape..

When i came back to penang, there are still certain things that i cant forgo or put it this way...i dint want to let go. Probably, it's just me who doesnt want to move on when i told myself to. Last Sat, managed to catch up with mabel for yum cha. It was definitely a pleasant night by hanging out with her. I miss those times when i could just drive over to Vista B to picked her up for dinner or chao tao fu. Those were the days.

Anyway, i managed to convinced her about my point of view in certain issues. Probably, i just need someone to understand my stand point of why i cant let go. So yea, thank god she understand. After that night out with her, i still choose to believe my own little tiny heart that things will changed. Well, i know. I'm a hard headed person who choose to believe in myself rather than accepting people's advice. I still accept though, but it doesnt hit me that hard. When i'm still confused, Daniel called me. I was pretty shocked to received his call anyway. Well, we hardly talked to each other till he told me he is getting MARRIED. Hahhaa. That was the bomb he gave me. He was there for me when shits happen though. He told me certain things, but still i choose to ignore it. What an idiotic person am i? S.T.U.P.I.D is the best word to describe me. But i realise one thing, i have been transformed into a party girl for the past 4 months in KL, which practically shocked me when i think about it. It gave me a shocked. Thank god, semester end & here am i, back at home. Which i think it's the only way that i could put all those little thoughts together & understand every piece of it. Tonight, Kean, Daniel and i was having a long good chat about our past life. Basically, it was more about Dan's history though. We went to Coffee island to have some drinks. Well, i would say this mini cousin gathering had actually made me realized something that i missed. It gave me a clearer picture of which path to choose for my life. By laughing at Dan's past life experiences, it make me aware that i might be heading the same way as Dan were back in his younger days. When i was driving home alone, all those thoughts that was done in my head, had just reminded me that i'm not that type of person. For once, i have decided that i dint want to go through that kind of life which is not me. Finally, i'm back to normal & i'm super duper clear about what i want & need in my life. Life is a wonderful thing. All you have to do is to be clear of what you want & need in life. That's what i have learned from Kean. Once you have set your goals, live up to it and enjoy it to the fullest. There's one thing that i have learned, shits do make you a better person after all. It grooms you up.

Well, i would like to say Thank you to my 2 dearest cousin brothers who shared their eperiences & made me realized that i still can amend those problems. I had a wonderful yum cha with you guys. Thanks alot.

Girls Nite Out W/o the boysss....Woot Woot

Weeeee... Finally, we met up for a our girls nite out after so long. Probably a year, i guess. Anyway, we had an awesome time. Before, i revealed the details, i need to apologized first to someone. First of all, rachel babe.. I'm sorry that you weren't able to joined us. Well, there's always next time... *the innocent look* of me...hahaha..

First, it was just a random hang out with Esther in midvalley (to smack some stuff on her head)... hehe...Of course, it is something good that will benefit her in long run. We had a long conversation about all kind of stuff. Then, we made the sudden plan...

Esther: Eh, want to go wakiki.

Me: Hmm...Okok..Since i have not stepped into wakiki ever since your last birthday.

Finally, we decided and called melissa to tag along. At first, we are suppose to meet up for tea time but she had to something. So, the tea plan had been cancelled. Before heading to Wakiki, 3 of us went for some snacks as Melissa need some food. So, we went over to some place called the dim sum in SS3. The food is not bad though. Mel called one of her friend to tag along. So yea..That's the night i met Kathryn. What a crazy night we had in wakiki? Oh yea..Mel was practically soo funny after the long island tea. I miss those moments, mel..When can we have another girls nite out? hahaha... I love the 80's music which was played by one of the band in Wakiki that night. Weeee... A gloomy day ended with great music to put aside all that problems that i faced plus mel's funny side of the character...it just made my day soo good.. Weeeeeeee.. Thanks you guys...

p/s... I knew someone would actually complained about my blog because it's full of text. Well, truth to be told..Esther is the one...Here you go babe...some pictures that will make you read my blog right..LOL.

The atmosphere of Wakiki 1.

The band of the night..

Guys are like dogs & girls are like cats...

Before you could judge anything, let me explain this. Don't be mad when you read the title. Well, think again. It's true though.. This phrase was told by a good friend of mine, by the name of Esther.. LOL.. Esther, i bet you are laughing now..
The meaning behind the phrase is... dogs will only whack their tails when they feel like too & cats will only come when they are being asked to. Indirectly, dogs will go after the cat when they want something for them. Be nice or anything just to get something good. But cats will only be attracted to when they feel or wanted too. So, does that sound familiar to you?? Hahaha..
I know it is pretty random, but hey, it is soo true.. Lol... Besides that, Cats will never understand how and what do the dogs think or feel, same goes to the dog. Ring a bell?? it's the exact same thing that are face by the opposite sex as well. LOL. As we, girls, will never understand the way guys thinks or does things. Same goes to them.
But, humans will definitely make an effort to tolerate the other parties in order to maintain a good relationship. At times, human do fight. Well, that's pretty normal in life. Well, bear with it and try to understand each other. Well, you might be able to learned something from the other party if you try to understand them. As i have mentioned in the earlier posting, life is all about learning. When a couple are in bad terms, talked it out.. It's the best way to deal with problems. Sometimes, miracles do happen. Well, have you ever seen a dog and a cat that will leave together in harmonies. The chances are rare, but there are some dogs and cats that does stay together. It's all about give and take. =) it's pretty short post. As i'm quite tired today. So, adieus guys..

There's always a light at the end of your gloomy day...

Life is pretty amazing at times, if you take a good look at it from a different perspective. Well, by facing all those obstacles in life, It will definitely shape you up in a proper way, which is to be a better person at the end of the day. Which is pretty darn true, right? Peepz, have you ever thought that, We, are like the babies. When they fell, they cried but still, that doesnt stop them from trying until they have achieved their goals. That kind of mentality, i think we all should follow. Their determination to succeed is much stronger than us. They, may look fragile, but they are way stronger than us, in terms of mentality. The only thing that separate us between them are the obstacles that we will have to go through. So, why cant we be like them? Since you know that life is all about going through obstacles, why dont we face it? I felt that, in every problems, there will always be a solution. It is up to you on how you look at that situation as a whole. Well, that is my all time favourite motto. Because i tend to see things, from a different perspective, when all those pieces are being place together.
First of all, by running away from an issue, it will not ease the problems but worsen the entire situation. So, why do you want to run away from it when you know that it will make things worst? For those who are reading my blog, you guys would probably agree with me, i guess. If you need to talk, feel free to express it all out. We are HUMANs & WE do need company. In this case, our friends will be our companion that will be there for us whenever we needed them to be. There you go, F.R.I.E.N.D.S will definitely lighten up your gloomy day by cracking silly jokes that will make you feel better.
If you find it hard to express it out, just calm yourself down or give yourself a break by doing things that you want or wish to do. Well, a holiday would be great though. Sometimes, you wish for a holiday but you can't have it, then opt for another option which you think that will comfort you the most. Just Chill & Relax. Once you are comfy, then only move on to the problems by untangling it one by one. I'm sure you guys are able to do it.
Put it this way, i was practically feeling down for the past one week. Basically, when you are down, every problems are aimed directly towards you, which will make you feel suffocated. Sounds Familiar to you. Guess what? It's normal & you are not the only one. Everyone do have their ups and downs. But, i was glad that i had great bunch of friends to go through this obstacles with me.
Recently, I had so many stuff to deal on, raging from assignments, personal issues, and house hold issues. Darn. it's suck. OH God, i wonder how did i managed to untangle myself from everything. Well, i choose to solve the important ones first. Then, from there, lights shine at the end of my gloomy day. I'm serious.
Well, there's one time, when i kinda lost my PR notes. I was freaked out because that particular notes meant so much to my assignments and i lost it. I went nuts that time, practically searching every part of my house for that particular notes. More towards being a mad person hunting for food. Requesting for SOS from friends. But, they need it as well. At the end of the day, i dint bother to think of it after ransacking my entire house because it is not appearing anyway. So, I went to bed instead. Guess What? I dreamt of my notes. Am i crazy? LOL...Pretty retarded right.. Yes, i dreamt of my notes and the place where i left it. When i was awake in the next morning, i hunt for that particular place again. Weeeeeee, i found my notes. I was practically laughing once i found it. How retarded was i? LOL.
See, what i meant by "there's always a light at the end of your gloomy day". After that notes were found, everything just went smoothly & here i am sharing my personal experiences with you guys. So, dont treat the issues as if there's no tomorrow. Give yourself a BREAK and you will feel much better after that. Once you have overcome that obstacles, you will feel much better and a stronger mentality. So, deal with it in a calm situation and you will be alright. Ops... I think i need to crash now.. I'm having morning class tomorrow. So, adieus guys. :D

Home, here i come!!!!!!! Weeeee =D

Omg!! After a month in kl, I actually miss home. It's like ages since the last i went home. However, I cant wait for it to come. Weee!!! =D I cant wait to see lit monster plus everyone back home. Man, I miss them soo much. Most of all, i just need a break from everything. This is the moment i have been waiting for. Mabel told me, she was going back today with ho wai. I was so jealous & sad to hear that she is going home!! Sob sob. OH yeah, I MISS YOU TOO MABEL HEAH. It's been 2 months already eversince the last hangout which is in Coffee Island. I wanted to go home today too. But i cant, law's exam on monday. Speaking of Law, the thick notes, which practically i have not even touched ever since esther past it to me on last wednesday. Guess what! It is still nicely wrapped under the plastic cover. LOL. Guess i had to start stuffing cases to my brain by tonight. Gosh. it's defamation. Why Defamation? Why can't it be Copyright? Copyright cases are interesting. Hahaha. I bet you guys would probably wondering why am i going hyper for cases. Hopefully, i will do well for Law. Time to argue once again. This time on the piece of paper in 2 hrs time. LOL Once Law are done, here comes newspaper webdesign. Sigh!! It's nice to design, but i'm just practically slacking. Yesterday night, was practically staying up all night long just to finish Advertising. SLACKING. Btw, I had to thank Rachel for her help too.. Hehehe..If it wasn't because of you babe, i think i'm still stuck and oh yea, esther too.. LoL. How could i ever forget the Chin's & the Mee & the Ling. LOL.. This gave me the old school feeling, which is back then, the KDU times. ME, Rachel , Esther & Ina were the BABI Geng. Wonder who came up with this nick anyway? LOL.. pig geng..WTH..Such an old school feeling. During exam, we practically staying up all night long just to stuff everything up before the exam. YEAH! Last MINUTE Stuffing. We'll called each other to discuss or wake each other up. LOL..Those were the days that i really miss. Hahhaa.. Did it ring the bell on you, rachel & esther? hehehe... Damn, i MIss KDU soo much. Those were the craziest time i had. Well, KL is just the moment where everyone just headed their own ways. Practically, lost in touch, but thank god, managed to keep in touch with Sonia, Nisha and RACHEL this year. Last year, We were just so tight down with our work. At least, there's something. Sigh. I miss the get together moments in tyrese's place with siao kia around & alan (the drunkards). Practically, his face turn into tomato after 2 glasses of Vodka. LOL. OMG. that was ages!! LoL. But i bet we decided to go separate ways. Man, if we were to sit down n chat about our past histories, I think it would takes days to finish up the entire conversation & us laughing over the stupid & wrongdoings. LOL. So, yea.. There you go. I cant wait to meet with my ex- colleagues and everyone back at home. Next week is the day. WEEEE!!!! Adieus guys. =)

Depression + Stress + Sleepless night = Weight Loss

Sometimes, i'm wonder what will life be, when there's no depression, stress, and sleepless night? I still couldn't figure it out, if you, people out there, knew the answer, mind telling me. =)

I haven't been sleeping well lately...the max was 3 to 4 hours which i know it's bad for me. But, what can i do? I have NO CHOICE, I had to stay awake to finish up my assignments plus sleeping would actually make my brain went wondering. Besides, i couldn't even sleep. Which is totally sucks. I have cried, scream, spoke to friends about it, slacking and been drinking 2 cups of coffee in less than an hour. This is the only way to kill my boredom when i'm home plus been trying my fucking best to complete my assignment, when i'm super down. Oh yea, Coffee is my best friend for now. I cant leave without coffee. Seriously. Even though it kills me, by having bad headaches, diarrhea, and even throwing up. Crazy stuff, i know. Hahaha. I think my friends or love ones would probably be screaming now, for torturing myself to the max. Well, i know it hurt me internally, but i got the results that i want. WEIGHT LOSS. Weeee, Indeed...i lose weight too, practically i'm happy for it. Of course, coffee isn't the only thing that cause it, i dont have appetite as well. Guess What?? My diet for now is a meal per day. Pathetic right?

At times, i feel like running away from all the problems i'm facing now. It's hurting me deeply. Might as well you just murder me right away. But, i know i had to be tough to face it anyway, because i know that you cant do anything either. Well, i had no choice but to respect your decision. But i really hope that time flies & the next thing i knew, i'm back home. I know my friends will be there for me when i needed them. That's why i feel grateful of having them in life. That's partly why i choose not to stay at home for now. There's no one for me to turn too when i'm home. EVERYTHING is just electrical items. There's no soul to it. But, thank god that i have assignments to keep my mind busy. I used to hate assignments & felt stress up over it when the dateline is around the corner. But, now, i'm just happy and glad that i have assignments to keep me going and less thought on you. I never knew that i went in too deep this time. Sigh, i should be blame for falling too deep for you, when so many people advices me not too. Well, a price to pay then. But, i would like to thanked you if you are reading my blog for making my life upside down and losing weight in less than a week. Gosh, that was pretty drastic loss though.

In a deep mess!!

Practically over the period of 1 month, I have being cared, loved and all those lovey dovey stuff occured to me. Well, I kinda rejected it at first because i knew good things like will not happen on me. Probably, you could say that i'm jz being pessimistic on life. As far as i'm concern, nothing good had ever occur to me in relationship wise. The actual fact that i have lost hope in seeking. Therefore, i choose to just enjoy my final year of my degree life. Heheh. But then, shits do happen in everyone's life. Well, i dint know that shits will happen to me because i choose to enjoy my life and be happy about it. But well, you could say that things do happen when you least expect it. So, when i choose to accept it, it went well at first. Less than a month, he just took everything off from me. What an idiot bastard you are? Sorry for the swearing because i needed too. If not, i think i might not be able to pull myself up from the mess that he had done on me. Guys out there!! if you are reading my blog, please make sure that you are fucking clear about the path of life that you choose. DO NOT COMMIT INTO SOMETHING WHEN YOU THINK YOU ARE NOT READY!!! At first, i thought about trying to be there for him. Well, you can say that i fall over him already. After having conversations with so many people, everyone told me that it is a pretty lame excuse and he is just playing me out. Well, if you are just playing me out, then i'm glad it went this way. The worst part is i have to handle this issue during my finals. WTF!!! and i'm all alone in KL. Why cant you just break this news to me when i'm back home. At least, i have family members with me and stuff to occupy my time. Nw, i have most of the time to wonder around. God damnit. But, thank god i have great friends and family member that willingly to pull me out of this mess. THANK YOU for being there for me. If wasnt because of you guys, i dont think i could reach this far. Thanks rachel for pulling me to club and be there for me throughout the entire time when i was suffering like shit. I hope that i can get rid of you asap. Probably, we shouldn't start at all at the beginning. Twice already. So, I think it's meant to be friends rather than in a relationship. Now, i hope that i dont screw or flunk my finals. God, please give me the strength to go on.